June 8,4:20P.M,Saturday,2002....
1 yr. later...
VISWAS at a tender age of 1yr...
I was busy reading Economics ..(for my exams which were 2 weeks away !)..Suddenly my gran'ma came home crying & howling as if she saw a ghost!!..I suddenly went to the living room where I found her holding a motionless,inanimate object in her hand!!! What was it? Was it a dead body? A sudden grief passed by me!.. she then suddenly threw it on the sofa nearby as if its of no use now!! It was a baby.............. none other than "VISWAS!".... She howled & said "He is dead!!".. Everyone was speechless... She repeated that again...." Doctor declared him dead!!"..He suffers from feat of EPILEPSY!!(Oxygen does not get way to his brain).. Doctors provided him with an overdose of QUININE..used to treat malaria patients.. without diagnosing !! I touched him ..how cud he be so motionless as if he was in a deep slumber & saying me.. don't waken me up "DIDI"..I wanna sleep..i'm feeling very cosy now.. no I don't want to feel the pain of those sharp injections,salines,needles ..those bitter syrups & tablets, which have taken away my taste buds!! Please leave me now ...do you want that every moment i fear living life!IF no set me free!!He suffered the ultimate punishment ...not "LIFE TIME IMPRISONMENT OR KALAPANI"..... but something more serious than that ..it was "LIFE"....
I see him getting injected everyday ..his very hands which are meant for holding toys .. always 'have' an injected needle made to provide him saline... he cries everyday infront of me ..but i'm helpless .."can't i do anything for him? " is the interrogation which always questions my existence..But if he dies.....no,no!! how can I show that how much I love him...!! Please don't take him away from me!! GOD if I have ever done GOOD to someone then please send him back...
AND suddenly someone divine came into.. touched VISWAS & said that he's alive .. IT was none other than our family doctor ... i called for the ambulance & he was taken to "SCB ,hospital,CUTTACK.." I dared not to go with him ..I remained at home ..all the night I sat in my POOJA room.. & lit a "small DIYAA.." asking GOD to save him!! I sat there upto night 2:00 a.m ..but after that i felt sleepy.. i watered ma eyes &came back ..the DIYA was still burning.. & i had to save it any way ..to add up to my problems .. day was rainy &weather forecast reports predicted a cyclone ..winds were furious but i did not want to give up in anyway..ma DIYAA burnt for the whole night..At morning...I rang my aunt &she comforted me that "VISWAS "is ok,though not completely..
TODAY also I thank GOD because he gave me a chance 2 show what can I do for him & off course saved ma brother "VISWAS"!! ..... U know he's a kinda boy who understands everything but is unable to reciprocate..He loves me &calls me by my name "Nikki".. He means the world to me ..HE's unexplicable oh yes!!! He's my TAARE ZAMEEN PAR boy..(thanks to AAMIR .. had not he produced this film ..I couldnot have named him so..) ..he suffers everyday..gets medicated every moment yet i'm there to help him out !!! it's incurable but i w'll leave no stones unturned to cure him !! MY LOVE w'll heal him completely one day!
HE goes to school now & is 8 yrs.. I prepare him 4 his school,drop him there .. I am his guide,teacher, sister,critic..n I w'll remain throughout ..."I LOVE HIM" are the words I wanna say him at a minimum OH!! yes I bestow on him my love inform of loads of hugs & kisses !!! & when he gets irritated ..he says "DI ,leave me!!".. BUT i never...
"""Even a fool knows you can't reach the stars,
but that doesn't stop a wiseman from trying."""
Now I’m stronger than yesterday, Now it’s nothing but my way, My lonliness ain’t killing me no more, I’m stronger than I ever thought that I could be...you are not my WEAKNESS but ma ultimate STRENGTH...
The meaning of life is to give life meaning...& i have given it!!!
I'M glad that you are my brother!! *VISWAS I LOVE U raised to the power infinity!!!!!!*
THANKS & REGARDS..
SOWMYA .
UNITED INDIA.
